Wednesday, December 04, 2013

it's my turn.. -_-'

nak luah kan perasaan lah hari nih..wuuuu

tak der lah besar mane pun isu nyer..ala isu yang almost newly married akan hadapi.
"dah berisi ker belum"

hahaha..sebab tu tajuk it's my turn..yup now my turn pulak kene tanye soklan nih lepas soklan "bile nak kawen..". yer lah dah kawen more than a year pun..sure semua pun tunggu berita gembira..hey kalo ikut kan bukan korang jer nak tanye, aku pun tanyer diri sendiri "dah berisi ker belum..?" i'm not being sarcastic here..seriyes aku pun tanye diri sendiri jugak. dah jangan kate aku gile pulak cakap sorang-sorang kan o_0.

hurmmm..ape yang boleh aku cakap this thing is beyond my control. kalau lah sendiri boleh cantumkan sperm dan ovum kat dalam rahim tu..dah lame dah buat since the first nite. tapi masalahnyer tak boleh..so wat else can i do, selain berusaha, berdoa dan bertawakal..?
orang lain kawen bertahun-tahun belum ade rezeki pun chill jer. sebab mereka percaya kalau rezeki tu memang untuk mereka sooner or later mereka kan dapat jugak.

teringat satu kejadian berdarah..hehehe ;)
having my menses..and telling a person that i can't pray. i just can't believe my ears that the person said "eh tak lekat-lekat lagi..biler nyer nak melekat" tak pasti la orang tu bergurau ker hape ker..tapi seriously it's kindda piss me off. ingat gune gam ker nak lekat-lekat... hahaha

Banyak jugak kejadian-kejadian lain such as people asking us to stay by ourself instead of staying with in law. Coz they said i'm in stress, since stress = hard to concieve. Adoiyaii...so what is their explaination for those couple yg stay by themselves but still haven't concieve..? 

Now since im in those people shoes..i do understand..its not easy to accept ketentuan Allah yang kite masih belum ade rezeki. Tapi bile orang lain bertanya..some how i can conclude that, they are questioning on what Allah had planned for us. Bukankan perancangan Allah itu yang terbaik. So do pray for us that Allah will grant us the rezeki soonest...insyaAllah.


For time being..we both are enjoying our marriage to the fulless, like dating after works or during weekends and planed some weekend getaway. What is important to us now is to build the chemistry. To fully understand each other. Yup en.suami is a bizi man. His deal was weekend at home, so mostly he'll be traveling in and out of country on weekdays. So we do need our quality time on weekend for just us. ^_^

Note: tis entry was written sooo long ago. Baru nih rajin nak edit and publish...hehehe

♥,


5 comments:

  1. salam...

    Sabar banyak2 je la aino...aku dah pernah melaluinya.. pedih telinga dengar. hati tak yah cakap la. kena bahan kat opis pon slalu. kat opis ramai lelaki. mulut takde insurans. tadah je la telinga dengar diorang kutuk pasal anak. tu belum masuk sedara mara tanya2 lagi. macam aku lagi la plak, adik kawen setahun lepas aku kawen dah ngandung dulu. aku plak tak gak ada lagi, lagi la diorang sibuk tanya. nasib baik suami aku paham. suami aku ok je. aku je stress kekadang. hehehe... kadang2 bila period aku nangis sebab sedih belum ada lagi rezeki nak pregnant.

    tapi Allah lebih tahu apa yang terbaik buat hamba-Nya kan? masa berdua nilah kita suami isteri nak enjoy hidup berdua, kenal pasangan lebih dalam, pergi dating, tengok wayang, melancong. bila dah ada anak tumpuan lebih banyak pada anak. Yela.. anak nak membesarkan. mesti kena tumpu lebih pada diorang. jadi, enjoy lah saat2 korang berdua. InsyaAllah, sampai masa yg sesuai adalah rezeki korang.

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    1. Alhamdulillah Ayip now ko dah ade bby pun kan....

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  2. Aino, well.. me faced the same situation too.. Kadang rasa nak tanya je balik kt orang-orang yg bertanya tu " Makcik bila nak mati. Agak-agak tau tak? Kalau tau boleh gak saya jawab soalan makcik tadi".. hihi.. Tapi senyum je lah.. Takpe, the day will come Allah aturkan yang terbaik utk hambanya..

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    1. Yup...hanya Allah yang tahu jawapannyer..ape yg kite holeh buat berdoa dan always stay positive :) bukan senang nak maintain cool but somehow hav to act strong for diri sendiri dan pasangan...

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